Tuesday, May 27, 2008

So Blessed

I have the most wonderful child. She fills my heart with this complete love I have never ever experienced. The relationship I have with my husband makes my heart skip a beat, but the unending love I have for Lili takes my breath away.

I had her all to myself for a few hours yesterday, which is a rare occurrence. Usually it is just on Matt's softball nights and she usually is asleep for most our time together. But I got to spend a lot of mommy/baby time with her. She is magnificent! Her intelligence is staggering. She can figure out a way to undo or get through anything. Her fine motor skills are amazing. I don't even mind that she won't hold her bottle. It gives me a a little more time to think of her as a baby when she is cuddled up next to me.

She is the most precious gift I have ever been given. Sometimes I forget (a little) what a blessing she truly is. She was born healthy, strong, and perfect. She was the biggest baby in the nursery at birth, by several pounds. All the other babies were these tiny, frail creatures who looked like they would shatter if you touched them (although that didn't keep the nurses from beating the burps right out of them, it seemed like). I would cry because she was under the UV lights, but looking back, she was probably the healthiest baby in there, and I really had nothing to cry about.

How many of those tiny little bundles never went home to be loved by their mommy? How many of those tiny angels are forever disabled because they were born too soon or too sick? And how many of them ended up as strong and healthy as Lili?

I never want to forget how blessed I am. She is my angel on earth. She is here to remind me of all the good in the Universe. She is God's Love personified.

Every smile, every belly laugh, every splash in the tub, every cheerio that goes flying across the room, every squeal, every messy kiss she gives me, every time she lays her head on my shoulder, every raspberry I give her that makes her giggle, even every tear she sheds will remind me how much I love her and how blessed I am to have her in my life.